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Love When We Need It Most

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I am sitting here this morning thinking about what to write. My inspiration has been a little cloudy lately. A couple of weeks ago, my dog passed unexpectedly and I was heartbroken. Although it was devastating, I tried to grasp for understanding. I am sure that is what we all do when bad things happen. It is part of human nature to search for an answer and to try to understand the why behind events that are outside of our control. The morning after my dog was gone, I had countless calls from wonderful friends that were concerned for my well being. They took the time to reach out and some of them cried with me. As we talked and cried on the phone, my heart began to heal. I understood that I was not alone and I will forever be grateful for the friends and family I have. They are a blessing to me. I saw the same kindness and love via social media for those that were in turmoil when confronting Mother Nature. I have watched the events that have transpired in this country over ...
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Have You Seen My Happiness?

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Friday is always rewarding after a work week. I made the decision today that I was going to be lazy. I wasn't going to do a darn thing tonight. Netflix, a couple of neglected magazines, and I made a very attractive party of 3. Well, that is until I lasted through one show and half a magazine. Who reads those anymore anyway? So here we are just the two of us. I'm sharing my most private thoughts and you are reading them. I was thinking a lot about what I wanted to write tonight and I just couldn't help but laugh. Before I sat down to update this blog, I did a few things around the house, painted my nails, cooked dinner, hemmed a fantastic black dress to wear out tomorrow, and told myself that I could write in the morning. It didn't work. I have been working on my book lately and doing research on how to help people find their happiness. It has taken me on a journey through my own life to understand how I found mine and most importantly, how I keep it. My mom had ...
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Meet Virginia

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As I sit here this morning at the computer, I am overcome with emotion and sadness. I don't usually watch the news because of the pain it causes me. I know to some that may sound like a state of denial, but over a year ago, when struggling with sleepless nights and anxiety, I decided to cut it from my routine. Day after day I was overcome with sadness and shed tears for all of the horror happening in this world. As I started learning Reiki, I gained a greater understanding of energy and the flow of it everywhere. In fact, Reiki can be proven as a healing modality by quantum physics. I will not be going into any detail as I am no subject matter expert on any science. But, we are all radiating our thoughts and emotions continually. If you have ever been in a relationship where your partner is mad and not talking to you, the first hand experience will prove this point. Even the most logical person can acknowledge this concept. The Business Dictionary defines energy as the following:...
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Art in the Right Perspective

I started painting not too long ago. I have never considered myself an artistic person and it was something new to try. Over the years, I have attempted to be that crafty person and failed miserably. In fact, cooking is the only thing I have really taken pride in. There have been multiple times that I have gone to craft parties or tried to do something for the holidays as tender precious gifts for the ones I love. They have all landed in the garbage and a trip to the store or online shopping was close behind. I have such a respect for Amazon Prime. It has saved Christmas many times. So here I am in my 44 th year on this planet and somehow I decided it was time to pick up a paint brush. The first attempt was sitting at the dining room table with my mom and a YouTube video on how to paint a rock garden. I get my amazing ability to avoid crafty things from her. We are both so critical of ourselves that I am surprised the canvas didn’t end up in the garbage halfway through. We laughed...
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Here We Go Again

I always love the stories about the cute older couples that met when they were young and are now in their 80's or 90's. I envy their years together and the experiences that time has brought them. The interviews are adorable and, more than anything, I think I am jealous that they never had to start over, erase the white board, clear the clutter, or rebuild what has been torn down. I would be foolish to think that they didn't experience tough times. It can't all be amazing or we would take it for granted. I do love that they had someone to experience it all with though.  I can only imagine what that would be like. I used to go to the nursing home and volunteer to read to the men and women there. I would go from room to room and visit with them if they wanted company. Some of them did not, but, the ones that did, would talk to me about their lives. I would ask them questions and we would laugh or I would read to them. I admired their wisdom and experience. They had lived...
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Waiting for the Storm to Pass

I walked outside tonight to look at the sky before the sun set. I love the way it looks after the storm has passed. It’s not as hot tonight and the clouds are picking up all the colors of the setting sun. It rained all day today and the air is thick with moisture. I love the sunshine, but, the dry Arizona desert has made me love rainy days, like today, so much more. I stand in the rain and smell the raindrops as they evaporate from the hot cement in my driveway. My dogs huddle in the garage and I am right out in the middle of it. As I stood there and watched the colors and clouds change, I started thinking about the storms in our own lives. I am not sure I enjoy running out into those. We do everything we can to avoid them most of the time. Sometimes, that even includes lying to ourselves or ignoring our truth. For me, the storm is always a little slap in the face. I am a forever optimist and strive to see the good in others and situations. It doesn’t always work and then, I deal w...
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Home is Where My Heart Is – July 20, 2017

I am heading back to Arizona tomorrow and although, I have enjoyed my time with my family, I am ready to be home. I have had trouble sleeping the last couple of nights and I know that it is because I think too much. Yesterday morning I went to the basement apartment that my brother lived in until he passed last year. Everything was just as he left it. My mom hasn’t been able to clean it out and I can’t blame her. I sat down in the bedroom and stared at the wall for what felt like hours. I stood in his closet and traced the shoulders of his shirts with my fingers. As my eyes moved to the top shelf, I saw a leather notebook. I picked it up and started to flip through the pages. He had made a list of the places he wanted to go. Amsterdam, Colorado, Whistler all had a spot on his pages. There were so many thoughts that he captured and reading them made me feel close to him for a brief moment. It feels so unfair that I am a year older and he isn’t here anymore...
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